In Need of Some Inspiration

tunnelIt’s been a while since I last posted. I had given up on ever posting again. In part because I was soo freaking busy but also in part (and probably more so in part) because I just wasn’t motivated to post. But coming back to the blog and reading asialynette327’s posts inspired me to just jot something down. Nothing special. Just something.

My last entry might have been some time in April. I’m not really sure. Since then a lot has happened, but then again, of course a lot has happened–it has after all been 7 months! Let’s see, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Independence Day, Halloween, and most recently Thanksgiving have all passed. I also had a birthday, yay me!

I went vacationing on a Caribbean island, bought a car, and moved to a new place all within a month of each other (btw my $0.02: don’t ever do that).

Most importantly though, I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do after school. I have this fear that I will not be trained/prepared to do anything once I finish. Not a very happy thought.

I feel like everything I do now and every decision I make now sets the stage for what I can do later. That’s a scary thought because I have no stinking clue what I want to do later (except be done with school). And to make matters worse, I feel like all the things I love to do like act, perform, volunteer, read (for fun), and travel, I’ve had to put on hold. And yet, it’s these things that reinvigorate me and give me so much inspiration for the future. I’ve been listening to a lot of music lately which has been helpful but my motivation and excitement for the future is waning.

So right now, I’m in need of some inspiration fast, some indication that there is a light at the end of this “graduate school-don’t know where my life is going” tunnel.

Happy belated Thanksgiving, all!!

Looking Back…

looking backI just heard T.I.’s “Memories Back Then,” and it made me think of the incredibly stupid stuff I did as a teen. (Yes I, “Miss Goody Two Shoes,” did some out-of-character stuff.) I honestly feel blessed that I am in the place I am now; it could have been very different. Because I am not a “statistic,” I believe my purpose in life is to give back and help uplift others. People have thought me to be crazy because I have degrees from MIT and Harvard, yet I am essentially a “mentor” and not running the world. It’s cool though. I’m happy, and little by little, I am helping to change a few young adults’ worlds. Also, I live quite comfortably for being a “mentor” – I get paid nicely for what some people do for free! Am I rich? No – but I do what I want when I want and for that I am GRATEFUL! Happy Saturday, Ranters!